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LAY FANG
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MAY[strawberry sundae]
NATALING
PUI HOON[mummy]
PUI HUA
RYAN[bullshit]
SARAH[crazy junior]
SELVAM
STEFFI
WEIQI[darling]
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WINNIE[slow]
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wore heels.[im good to wendy!]hahas.selvam wore de vampire suit.he won first prize!cheers!lols.gort back report book.improved alot but...still veri lousy lahz.hahas.didnt go class outing.didnt go farewell party.instead went to watch 1408 wid selvam.joshua.ryan.wendy.hongni.quite scary lahz.certain parts.hahas.den went to eat.den went home.

to my class:im veri veri veri sorri for not goin todae.hope u all enjoyed yourselves.

to gb ppl:im sorri.

to u:stop tryin to tok to mi.i wunt eva b a gd friend to u animore.fat hope!its OVER!

to YOU:if u dun wish to tell.dun tell.u dun hab to keep on sayin "next time.next time.".im damn frustrated lahz.if u dun wanna tell mi de truth.y ask mi de question?hais.sadded.

feelin guilty.
is it realli my fault?
if it is.im sorri.
sobs.

Labels: coNgRAts, mAN.

dis mornin.i was damn quiet.quite alot of ppl kept askin mi to smile.lols.but i didnt hab de mood to after thinkin bout de past last nite.hais.yay!im currently undergoin de process of gettin rid of her.hahas.happi!dun hab to pretend animore.lols.den stayed for nite class.hahas.den went home.

feelin veri guilty.
stop makin mi feel guilty lahz.juz sae de truth lahz.pls.i wunt b angri de.hais.
sad.
i love u.
er.even if u r realli involved in wat u asked mi yesterdae.i will still love you.serious.
hais.but obviously.i will b disappointed lahz.

Labels: im goiN to lovE yoU No mAttER wAt.

durin pe.damn pissed off wid fcukin U.wat de hell lahz?crap lahz.i asked u for de ball.if u dun wan to giv.DUN GIV LAHZ.ASSHOLE.no nid to show mi ur fcuked up attitude rite?LAMER.do u realli tink dat onli u can show dat kind of attitude?THINK TWICE LAHZ.ASSHOLE!do u tink i actualli LIK you?yucks.pls lahz.ur attitude sucks!ur temper sucks!arrggh!i tolerated u for veri long alreadi.i juz cant stand it animore!I DUN WAN TO PRETEND LIK I LIK U.i hab decided.frm now on.we r juz school mates.nothin more den dat.u can sae dat u dun lik mi too.do u tink i giv a damn?i dUN!U can HATE mi for sayin all dis.but its juz de facts dat i wan u to noe.im sick of PRETENDIN.thanks for all de help dat u hab done for mi till now.i realli appreciate dem.last but not least.i realli tink u shld change ur atitude n learn to control ur temper before more n more ppl start to hate u.

hahas.de nicer part of de dae.went bm library wid YOU.lols.i thought it wud b weird but it was not.hahas.it was juz lik in de past.lols.den went to buy bubble tea.den went to dat particular place to slack.den sent YOU home.but u came to de bustop wid mi.lols.thanks arhz.even though u wasted my efforts.hahas.den went home.lols.im still thinkin bout de question dat u asked mi.i hope...hais...nvm.i shall not make wild guesses.thanks for accompanyin mi;cheerin mi up.i love YOU alot.

to x? mummy:thanks for tryin to console mi juz now.

to uncle:thanks for bein concerned juz now.

to milker:thanks for de msg.

to sherline:thanks for askin mi to smile alot of times.

to SLOW winnie de pooh:thanks for tryin to comfort mi.

to toy:thanks for askin mi to relax.

to mummy:thanks for askin mi to relax.

to daughter:thanks for ur concern.

to phui jie:thanks for ur concern.

to dumbiest:thanks for ur concern.

to abiramy:thanks for ur concern.

Labels: i do Not AppREciAtE UR pREsENcE.

hmmm.todae was quite a sucky dae.but it all changed after YOU came to de avt to study.hmmm.why was todae sucky?number one.i was late for school.number two.english was lik shit.number three.thought dere was no isp but actualli gort(for bio/chem).number four.some cmc stuff.number five.friendship stuff.ppl kept askin mi whether i was ok anot.im ok.lols.now bout de HAPPI part.hahas.YOU actualli came to de avt to study.lols. =) n taught maths.wow!alright.den after nite class.went home.tired.yawns.wanna sleep.zzz.

to YOU:thanks for teachin mi maths.glad dat u came AVT.you r LOVED by mi.

to uncle:thanks for de chocolate.n thanks for teachin mi maths.take care ok?

to winnie de pooh:speed up ur brain,man.lols.

to dat someone:juz cos i toked to dat someone doesnt mean i prefer him more den u ok?dun lik dat lahz.veri childish n irritatin lehz.i juz dun get u.

i understand dat it takes some time to realli go back to de past.
i will b patient.
no worries.
lovin n bein loved.

Labels: stop bEiN foolish.

hais.sian.mondae again!hahas.first two periods was maths.learnt circle properties dun noe wat shit lahz.den was english which was BORING!den was mother tongue which was quite ok.hahas.den recess.wasnt realli hungri but still bought rice.den was poa which was quite ok.den school ended.den at two.took poa test.i felt dat i wasted my time dere lahz.as i didnt noe wat de hell de questions were talkin about.arrggh.MRS NG!!!i wan to DROP poa!!!pls!!!den slacked around de school wid jesline.den went opposite buy food wid hoa while de rest went home.went canteen.eat liao.started studyin.joshua came.taught mi poa.hoa went home first.den we went home.reached home.kana forced to eat.wat de.arrggh!den playin comp n doin bio.

finally messages for todae frm you. =)
hahas.
glad.
waitin for next week. =)
lols.
love you.

to milker:thanks for teachin mi poa.hahas.sorri if i pissed u off by askin simple simple questions.lols.

slowly goin back to de past.
its ok.
hahas.

Labels: loviN ANd bEiN lovEd.

hmmm.woke up quite early due to stomach pains.checked my fone.had msg frm joshua.hahas.den watched tv.den bathed.did maths.went out wid my mum.went vivo.met one of my aunties n one of my gd uncles.happi. x) hahas.den reached home around four plus.den played comp.den YOU msged mi.asked mi whether i study alreadi anot.lols.told u "onli abit".den u asked mi to study frm 6 to 9.i agreed n i REALLI did STUDY!hahas.finished all my homework which has to b handed up tml.did POA lehz.lols.den playin comp lorz.hahas.goin to sleep liao.gd nite,everyone.

to strawberry sundae:sorri for not goin to study todae.

to owner:sorri for not goin to study todae.

to YOU: . .... ... !

Labels: lovEd.

todae ROCKS!hahas.we gort together again.happi.alright.yesterdae before i go to sleep.told my mum not to wake mi up.who wud hab thought dat my uncle came to my hse dis mornin n had de honour of wakin mi up frm my beautiful sleep?hais.so no choice lorz.had to wake up.den saw spiritual mum.hais.felt damn bad n guilty.den went home.had encounter wid a stupid BLACK cat.den playin comp.somethin WONDERFUL happened.i love YOU alot.

to x? mummy:thanks for comfortin mi.i love you.

to milker:thanks.

to hiang keat:thanks.

to jonathan:thanks.

to YOU:i love you.im veri happi dat we gort back together. =)

dun worry.i will study hard de.
thanks for ur naggings.
hahas.

Labels: woNdERfUl dAE.

bought two cadbury MILK chocolates for joshua.first was HISTORY which was super BORING!yucks!but at least i was sittin wid HOA!hahas. =)therefore.not dat bad lahz.lols.den went for english in de hall.sat wid hongni n wendy.it was super BORING too.but sittin wid dem was GREAT!lols.den was recess.den was HISTORY again.sian.yawn!hahas.den went to de hall for assembly.oso quite BORING!den studied.did quite a number of maths sums.yay!lols.stayed for nite class.veri few ppl were dere.lols.den went bm mac cos aishah wan to eat.den after dat went home.tired.goin to watch movie tomorrow.hahas.its gonna b a GREAT dae.

to winnie:thanks for teachin some maths stuff.

to jun wei:thanks for teachin even thought u taught mi wrongly de first time.lols.

to owner:pls dun tok in dat funni tone of urs again.hahas.i laugh until stomach damn pain sia.lols.

Labels: dUN wAN to.bUt hAb to.

gort back poa test.quite sad lahz.was last in class.hais.den gort back maths mock test paper two.passed lahz but a veri lousy pass lahz.hais.suddenly i feel damn lousy.how de hell m i goin to get thru "o" levels wid dis kind of grades?hais.hab to work damn hard liao.RENUKA!stop playin a fool n start on ur work for goodness gracious sake!STUDY!STUDY!STUDY!

YOU sent mi dis particular song.i listened to de lyrics n i feel dat(YOU . ........ .. ..).i feel ..... hais.everytime i wanna giv up on u.u always do somethin dat makes mi not giv up on u.how de hell do u dis?juz at de right time.hais.guess im realli fated to waited until .. ........ to make my final decision.i dun wan to giv up on you but ... hais.nvm.i shall wait until dat particular dae arrives.oh ya!i juz realised todae wud b our ... .. ... ..... anniversary if we're still together.hais.(sad!).

You used to talk to me like
I was the only one around
You used to lean on me
The only other choice was falling down
You used to walk with me like
We had no where we needed to go
Nice and slow
To no place in particular

We used to have this figured out
We used to breathe without a doubt
When nights were clear you were the first star that i'd see
We used to have this under control
We never thought we used to know
At least there's you
And at least there's me
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back?
To how it used to be

I used to reach for you
I got lost along the way
I used to listen
You always had the just right thing to say
I used to follow you
Never really cared where we would go
Fast or slow
To anywhere at all

We used to have this figured out
We used to breathe without a doubt
The nights were clearer for the first time that I'd see
We used to have this under control

We never thought we used to know
At least there's you
And at least there's me
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back?
To how it used to be

I look around me
And I want you to be there
Cause I miss the things that we shared
Look around you
It's empty and you're sad
Don't you miss the love that we had?

You used to talk to me like
I was the only one around
The only one around

We used to have this figured out
We used to breathe without a doubt
The nights were clearer for the first time that I'd see
We used to have this under control
We never thought we used to know
At least there's you
And at least there's me
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back?
To how it used to be yeah
To how it used to be

To how it used to be yeah
To how it used to be
To how it used to be

i shall end my blog here.hais.sadded.x(

i love YOU alot!

Labels: bAck to loviN yoU.ActUAlli i NEvA REAlli lEft yoU.

reached home quite late yesterdae.was damn TIRED n abit ANGRI(for some reason) and therefore,did not blog.instead i did my homework until twelve.hahas.im so guai.i shall not post bout todae too cos i now veri tired oso.juz wanted to sae a few things.

to milker:i TRUST you MORE than you TRUST mi.thanks for de MILK chocolate.i will get you ur DARK one tml.hahas.

to owner:sorri for snatching him away.not his fault lahz.lols.

i wan de dream to come TRUE.i rather fight wid you INSTEAD of PRETENDING dat i lik you.dream!pls come true lehz.

if ... goes ... i dun wan to go!

stayin back for nite class tml.(muz study hard).

hope i pass my maths mock test paper two.gort chocolate lehz.hahas.

currently hab not prepared anythin for history consultation tml.

i wan to sleep!

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZz.

oh!i did somethin evil todae.im sorri.yucks!i wunt apologise to u de lahz.small girl!

im RACIST!

hahas.hahas.hahas.hahas.hahas.hahas.hahas.hahas.hahas.hahas.hahas.hahas.hahas.hahas.

Labels: dog ANd boNE.moNkEy.coUNtRist.

dis mornin was damn quiet.but dun ask mi y.cos i dun realli noe.lols.first two periods was MATHS.MRS NG didnt come to sch todae.(was quite HAPPI cos todae gort alot of MATHS and POA).however.dere was one BAD thing regardin dis.TAN SOON YONG came into my class early in de mornin.CRAP!as usual.he had dat STUPID attitude of his lahz.he returned de mock test paper.failed lik shit.hais.den was english which was borin as usual.den was mother tongue.in de whole classroom onli gort mi.praba.jacob.buffalo.but den horz.it was NOT boring lehz.damn funni n FUN!hahas.i love mother tongue lessons!i love buffalo.(YES!i mean it!i LOVE buffalo!)lols.den was poa.de stupid indian relief teacher came again.hais.(im RACIST!)hahas.den slacked in de canteen.den went to do poa test which was super DIFFICULT!den went canteen.slack slack.den went opp sch to buy food.den joshua called to buy waffles for dun noe hu.wah lao.de queue was SUPER long.de aunty was SUPER blur.she kept on askin wat i wanted for four times lehz.some more.she didnt make de waffles properly lahz.arrggh.wen i grow up.im goin to SUE de shop.lols.den went study corner wid liyana n jian bao.studied dere.den de rest came down to join around eight plus.hahas.den went home wid aishah.joshua.jian bao.den bathed.watched tv.ate chocolate.playin comp.hahas.

to toy:dun angri alreadi lahz.relax.hahas.smile.

to milker:i wan my chocolate!!!

to crazy junior(small agnes):dun sad liao lahz.muz cheer up ok?smile.hahas.

to x? mummy:hahas.didnt noe i cud predict so well.lols.

to shoe freak:dun sad lahz.cheer up ok?hahas.

to dumbiest:i will try my best to get ur oreo for u as soon as possible.lols.

to buffalo:you ROCK,man!

Labels: do dEy REAlli dEsERvE it wEN i mysElf dUN dEsERvE it?

woke up.watched tv.ate breakfast.played comp.watched tv.ate lunch(it was DISGUSTING!).arranged my worksheets n everythin.watched tv.ate dinner.playin comp.wah.before we noe it.its goin to b mondae again.crap lahz.de weekend pass by so FAST!arggh!

to bro:sorri for not studyin wid u todae.

Labels: im not too sURE.

woke up dis mornin.watched tv.bathed.did maths.played comp.went tiong burger king to study wid hoa.ate dere.bought bubble tea.did maths again.n some physics.studied until 7.30 lik dat.den went ntuc to buy some stuff for my mum.den went home.oh my goodness.145 is HORRIBLE.waitin for it to come wen ur alone SUCKS!serious.it takes damn long lahz.reached home.bathed.watched tv n ate dinner.den playin comp.

to toy:thanks for teachin mi maths n physics and for accompanyin mi go ntuc.lols.bout de question dat u didn't noe how to do.i will NOT ask tan soon yong!i will ask MRS NG!

to owner:thanks for de photos.

was too tired to blog yesterdae.

YESTERDAE:was in de hall yesterdae durin cca period.firstly we did de maths mock test.de first part was ok(joshua;first part is NOT de first question).but de later part of de paper was DIFFICULT.hais.results confirm veri lousy de.after dat.we had a short break.den went back to de hall.did survey.den had recess.went to de foyer wid hongni to meet my mum n take my ic.den was history which was ok lahz.den went back to de hall for some girl guides stuff.den was "o" level english oral.i crapped damn alot lahz.lols.den went to de canteen.joshua.aishah n winnie were dere.oh.den went to find liyana take back my fone.den went back canteen.did maths.joshua taught mi.was veri hungri but lazy go buy.den wendy.may.hongni.hoa.pui hoon came.wendy n hongni went home.may went to meet "SMART".den jun wei n jerome n doris n liyana came.den study until seven plus.den went to eat dinner opp school wid joshua.jun wei n jerome.den mi n joshua went back school.did abit more maths.den went home.bathed.played comp.den went to sleep.Zzzz.hahas.

to daughter:thanks for accompanyin mi go find my mum durin recess.i love you.

to milker:thanks for teachin mi maths.hahas.continue teachin mi ok?(poa included).lols.

to owner:thanks for takin care of my fone.

to toy:thanks for teachin mi some maths questions.

to jun wei:thanks for teachin mi some maths questions.

dis mornin.felt veri sleepy.but after listenin to some songs.felt quite awake.poa was quite ok.ss was ok lahz.bio was ok too.maths was FUN!did vectors!vectors ROCK!den had ss again which was kind of boring.den went canteen slack.slack!den did some homework.left around 8.guai rite?lols.oh ya.gort back poa test results todae.arrggh!failed by 0.5 marks.feel lik KILLIN myself.arrggh!obviously.milker gort his chocolate.i oso wan!lols.

tml gort maths mock test.hais.alright.i lazy type liao.feel veri tired.lols.

to owner:no matter how many times u ask mi dat question.de answer will still b a
NO!!!hahas.told u i was RACIST in some way!lols.

to milker:how was de chocolate?hahas.i oso wan!buy for mi ok?lols.as a form of
encouragement.hahas.congrats on winning de games todae.lols.oh.thanks for
teachin mi maths juz now.hahas.tml stay back teach mi more.lols.

WISH MI ALL DE BEST FOR MY ENGLISH "O" LEVEL ORAL TML...
ALL DE BEST TO THOSE TAKIN IT TML...
WE CAN DO IT...

Labels: im sURpRisEd At how thiNgs ARE goiN.

before i start typin my post.i will honestly sae dat im currently damn lazy.therefore.if i type a veri short post.im sorri.hahas.

so.todae mornin.ran into de school wid liyana.joshua.n aishah.we were NEARLY late.lols.thanks to liyana.we were NOT late.maths was fun todae.learnt vectors!wow!it rocks!i actualli understood de lesson lehz.lols.but er.gettin back de loci test wasn't realli dat fun as i had onli scored a 8 out of 20.hais.den english was in de avt.it was BORING!BORING!BORING!den came physics.TAN SOON YONG!you suck!wat de hell is ur fcukin problem?I NOE dat u care alot bout our maths n science.i dun mind dat.but wats up wid u sayin dat we WUNT improve even if we retake our mt exam?juz cos last year's e1 ppl hu retook their mt exam didn't improve.doesnt mean we oso wunt improve rite?crap lahz u.most of de time.i scolded u wid NO REASON!but now.i hab a PERFECTLY GOOD REASON to scold u lik shit.arrggh!I HATE YOU!!!i will NEVA lik u.yucks!after dat was bio which was quite ok.den went for break.den went for maths.den went for pe.e4 n e3 combined.mi.nora.liyana.wendy.jesline.aishah.doris.rui ling.dewi.selvi.dolly.jereline. played soccer.my group(nora.liyana.wendy.aishah.selvi. was called de "MARSHMALLOWS" n de other group was called de "BLACK PEPPER".my group won!score was 2-0.lols.den slacked at de canteen.den went tiong wid wendy.hongni.joshua.hoa.xue li.jian bao.may.ate kopitiam.drank bubble tea.went home.bathed.did vectors.playin comp.

i hab truly given up on u.frm todae onwards.ur juz a schoolmate to mi unless some miracle happens(99.9% it wunt happen).you dun hab to pretend lik u care bout mi.my feelings for u hab become numb liao.dere's no turning back.glad dat u saw it.at least it will make u reflect on some stuff especially UR CHANGED ATTITUDE!i dun HATE you BUT i dun LOVE you either.

milker.remember our deal horz.EXPECT ur chocolates frm mi.hahas.

to myself:dun EXPECT any chocolates frm milker.lols.

to owner:thanks for helpin mi buy de book keepin book.i love you!

to XUE LI:HAPPI BIRTHDAE!IT WAS FUN BULLYIN YOU TODAE!HAHAS!

Labels: i dUN hAtE yoU bUt i dUN lovE yoU EithER.

Tuesday, August 14, 2007,
9:57 PM

made up my mind not to cry todae.physics was in avt todae.de lesson ok lahz.learnt quite alot.hahas.den was english which was(needless to sae) SUPER BORING!yucks!english lessons suck!even though im sittin wid pui hoon.de lesson is lik ewww.hais.those in my band wud understand y.lols.tml gort three periods of english lehz.arrggh!pui hoon.pls try ur veri best to come tml.dun let mi suffer durin english tml.hahas.den was mother tongue.felt damn weird to see buffalo's face.but had to face lahz.at first.he didn't sae anythin.den after a while.he asked us to sae out our results cos he dun realli noe our results or somethin lik dat.hais.wen it was my turn to sae out my result.i was on de verge of breakin down.my voice was lik super soft lahz.after dat i turned my head away frm de class n looked outside de window.den de teacher started to tok bout some stuff.n i started cryin.hais.i cried.cried.n cried.den dere was dis part wen he said"last time dere was dis girl hu gort an A2 n she cried lik hell.so horz.OUR renuka dun hab to cry."i started to cry more.hais.den he said"its ok.renuka.u can retake n try again.i feel dat u may get distinction.cos u r strong in paper one and two."den i continued cryin cos i knew veri well dat it was my oral which pulled my results down even though i gort a merit for it.hais.at least de teachers didn't fail mi or juz pass mi.i shld b thankful for dat.hey.fcukin *******.i noe how u gort ur A2 lahz.all thanks to ur fcukin oral which u gort a fcukin distinction for.fcuk.fcuk.fcuk.wow.u didnt come sch todae.heard frm ur fcukin frens dat u were sick!serve u right for showin mi dat fcuked up attitude.yucks!u suck lahz!let mi get back to todae.i stopped cryin n asked for permission to go de toilet.i broke down in de toilet AGAIN.den went back to class n was super quiet lahz.den met hoa outside de staff room.broke down again.hais.i wunt b surprised if i run out of tears juz cos of dis.hais.didn't hab de appetite to eat durin recess.was damn quiet durin bio.maths and physics test was ok.physics n bio practical was fun todae.lols.BIOLOGY PRACTICAL was more fun den PHYSICS PRACTICAL of course.duh!lols.by dat time.i was smilin alreadi lahz.lols.after dat.went outside staff room wid wendy to find hoa.stomach damn pain cos didn't eat anythin since yesterdae nite.so.was rushin dem to go n eat.joshua came too.we went kfc.but in de end.onli mi.joshua n hoa ate lorz.de rest went home.after eatin.we oso went home.i went to bathe.watched tv.den play comp lorz.too tired to study.lols.played games wid joshua on msn.FUN!hahas.

to buffalo:thanks for ur encouragin words.n once again.im sorri.

to toy:thanks for consolin mi by makin LAME jokes.

to x? mummy:thanks for consolin mi by makin LAME jokes.

to mummy:get well soon(by tml mornin)!dun let mi suffer durin english tml.

to milker:we shld play games more often.hahas.

to *****:now ur turn to show mi ur fcuked up attitude izzit?get lost lahz.BITCH!

to hui ling:thanks for lettin mi noe some stuff.dun worry.i wunt sabo u de.hahas.n ya.dun worry.i will study hard de.one of de BEST juniors EVER.i love you!

to DUMBESTbell:dun miss ur fone too much ok?dun sad lahz.smile.hahas.

yoU dUN giv A dAmN boUt mi.

wAitiN foR dE dAE to comE.

UR fAtE is iN UR hANds.

i jUz dUN UNdERstANd yoU.

y doEs it hAb to b dis wAy?

i cANt stANd it ANimoRE.

Labels: rUNNiN oUt of tEARs ANd lovE foR yoU.

Monday, August 13, 2007,
9:18 PM

hais.i gort a sickening B4.arrggh.veri sad sia.wen i realised dat i didn't get distinction.tears started to fall frm my eyes.wat de fcuk!******* can get A2???fcuk her lahz.act onli.stupid idiot.still show mi dat fcuked up attitude.go die lahz.asshole.tink u veri preety arhz?ur face lik shit lik dat.crapper.always lik to act cute n innocent onli.fcuk lahz.everytime lie n lie.lamer.so wat if u get A2???i suck!happi?lets wait patiently n see wat de ending result wud b.fcuk lahz.im tellin dis right now.im goin to study damn hard frm todae onwards.i muz and will win you n dat fcukin *****.alright.back to wen we were gettin back our results.i held back my tears wen it was my turn to walk up to darren chong n look at my results.however.wen he told mi dat i gort a B4.i broke down again.hais.actualli he wanted to giv mi his pen to sign on de paper.but wen he saw dat i had tears in my eyes.he quickly withdrew his pen n asked mi to take a seat.oh ya.wen i was told my results.buffalo was beside mi n was lookin at my results too.after takin a seat.darren chong asked mi y i was cryin.i juz kept shakin my head.den he asked "did u expect to do betta?".i nodded my head.den he asked "wat did u get durin mid yr?".i couldnt manage to say "B3"out.so i juz showed him three of my fingers.den he said"B3 arhz?u expected an A izzit?alright.its ok.dun b sad.now it is time for u to make a decision.whether u wan to retake anot.do tink of ur other subjects too."so.wen i finally calmed myself down.he gave mi his pen to sign on de paper.i juz scribbled on it n gave him his pen back.lastly.he said"dun worry.i dont get all dat i want in my life too."wen i stood up.i broke down again.i went back to my seat.pui hoon.jesline.hongni.wendy.were dere.dey tried to console mi.mrs ng came n talked to mi too.doris came too.mannan asked mi to not cry too.but i juz couldnt do it.i was damn upset lahz.i stopped cryin.den wen we left de hall n went staff room dere to find hoa.i broke down again.she consoled mi.wendy.hongni.pui hoon.jesline.consoled mi again.dis time joshua was oso dere.he asked mi nt to cry too.i stopped cryin after a while.den went canteen wid dem.nora tried to cheer mi up.jian bao tried to cheer mi up too.aishah tried to cheer mi up too.but in de end.i started cryin again.hais.im still damn upset...but dere's nothin dat i can do bout it.even though i noe dis.i still keep on cryin.sobs.

to HIM:congrats for gettin a C5.

to mummy:thanks for cheerin mi up.i love u.

to daughter:thanks for cheerin mi up.i love u.

to x? mummy:thanks for cheerin mi up.i love u.

to monkey:thanks for cheerin mi up.

to toy:thanks for cheerin mi up.i love u.

to milker:thanks for cheerin mi up.

to nora:thanks for cheerin mi up.

to shoe freak:thanks for cheerin mi up.

to dumbbell:thanks for cheerin mi up.i love u.i will try my best to smile genuinely
for u tml.lols.

to wife:thanks for cheerin mi up.

to darren chong:thanks for cheerin mi up.i realli love u alot.u rock,man!de BEST form teacher ever.YOU ROCK MY WORLD!i wunt ever forget you!

to mrs ng:thanks for cheerin mi up by crackin some lame jokes.hahas.i love u.dun
worry.i will do my best for poa n maths.u rock.

to buffalo:i dun noe why.but i feel dat i shld apologise to u for lettin u down.im
sorri.i realli am.hais.wen i saw ur sad face in class todae.i felt dat
somethin was wrong somewher.but i took it lightly.wen i knew my results
todae.u were dere.i realli appreciate it.but.hais.all i can sae is im
sorri.

to *******:fcuk off lahz.asshole.if tml u continue to show mi dat fcuked up attitude
of urs.b prepared to see de other side of mi.lamer.arrggh.i feel lik
whackin ur face sia.hais.get out of my sight.bitch!

to my mum:sorri for lettin u down.realli sorri.even though u didnt scold mi or
anythin.i still feel lousy deep inside.hais.sorri.sorri.sorri.sobs.

I HATE MY LIFE!
I LOVE PUI HOON.HONGNI.WENDY.HOA.LIYANA.MAY.AISHAH.NORA.DORIS.JESLINE.JOSHUA.JIAN BAO.BULLSHIT.HIM.

Sunday, August 12, 2007,
8:53 PM

alright.before i start talkin bout todae.i shall tok bout yesterdae nite first.lols.damn paiseh sia.i typed de three words to HIM instead of to my daughter.it was a BAD thing lahz but dere was somethin GOOD bout it too.lols.HE didn't lik "huh?" or somethin lik dat.he juz said"LOL.ok.nite.".hmmm.hais.shouldnt let my imagination run wild.

bout TODAE:

woke up.watched tv.played comp.went tiong eat wid my mum.den went purmei.brought some stuff over to my own hse.watched tv.ate ice cream.did bio.played comp.ate dinner.watched tv.ate ice cream.playin comp.

to bro:sorri.didnt go study wid u todae.all de best for ur prelims.

to owner:sorri.didnt go do poa wid u todae.wish u all de best for ur chinese "o"
level results tml.woof!woof!

to bullshit:all de best for ur prelims!u can do it de!dun put ur bullshit to waste.

to milker:wish u all de best for ur chinese "o" level results tml.

to daughter:wish u all de best for ur chinese "o" level results tml.

to x? mummy:wish u all de best for ur chinese "o" level results tml.

to mummy:wish u all de best for ur chinese "o" level results tml.

to monkey:wish u all de best for ur chinese "o" level results tml.

to shoe freak:wish u all de best for ur chinese "o" level results tml.

to dumbbell:wish u all de best for ur malay "o" level results tml.

to nora:wish u all de best for ur malay "o" level results tml.

to HIM:wish u all de best for ur tamil "o" level results tml.

Labels: yoU NEvA wERE A fRiENd of miNE.

Saturday, August 11, 2007,
9:43 PM

yesterdae mornin woke up to check de time onli.but in de end kept on msgin wendy and therefore was fully awake.den fought wid my mum.she said lots of hurtful things.i was lik damn sad lahz.told wendy bout it.i was acualli cryin even after steepin out of de hse.however.wen i saw milker's face.i didnt cry.i SMILED lehz.lols.wendy actualli went to buy a MILK CHOCOLATE for mi.im so TOUCHED!

X? MUMMY!i love you alot!

wen wendy boarded de bus.she was shocked to see mi smilin.hahas.she told mi dis wen we were walkin at east coast.lols.alright.so.mi.joshua.wendy.hongni.pui hoon.pui hua.went east coast yesterdae to play.hahas.we went to eat mac first.actualli didnt wan to eat de.but wendy forced mi to eat.lols.

IM SICK OF MAC!!!

den de rest of dem cycled.mi n wendy walked n talked bout lots of crap.hahas.den we climbed dis yellow tower which was damn short.den we went n played wid sea water.hahas.FUN!but in de end.we looked lik we pee-ed on our skirts and shorts.hongni.pui hoon.pui hua.joined us too.hongni gort damn wet too.lols.oh ya.wendy came up wid de WIND dance and de WATER dance.hahas.milker didn't wan to join us.lols.den we went mac slack again.we saw JOANNE!lols.den mi.hongni.joshua.went to find hoa at vivo to hab dinner.de rest went home.we went food republic.it was damn CROWDED lahz.i was damn damn thirsty lahz.lols.went to buy water chestnut drink.its price was $1.60 but de stupid cup was damn small lahz.arrggh.den went to buy food wid my daughter.in de end onli she buy.cos i lost my appetite.hahas.hoa n joshua thought i was angri wid dem.lols.den went home.reached home around 9.30.was too tired to play comp.therefore went to bathe.den went to sleep.phone batt was goin to b flat.but i forgot all about it.hahas.

bout TODAE!

woke up quite late.wen i saw my fone's screen blank.i was lik "HUH?".den after a while.i remembered dat i forgot to charge it yesterdae.so.charged my fone.n went to bathe.den msged wendy cos she had msged mi yesterdae nite at 10 sharp but i was in lala land alreadi.lols.den went bm mac to meet hoa n hongni to study.joshua last minute sae he not goin cos he had to go out wid frens.gave my daughter her SPECIAL DARK CHOCOLATE!lols.den studied abit.slacked abit.eleanor joined us too.hahas.den at 6 plus.hoa said she was hungri.den since eleanor asked us to eat at mac.we ate dere lorz.i was lik starin at de menu.

IM JUZ SO SICK OF MAC LAHZ!YUCKS!

cos of hoa n my daughter.i juz bought fries to eat lorz.den after dat went ntuc wid my daugher to buy some stuff which was not dere.den went hawker centre to buy durian ice kachang for my mum.but de dessert shops were closed.so in de end bought sugar cane juice for her lorz.den went home.

to mummy:thanks for suggestin to go out yesterdae.

to x? mummy:thanks for comin yesterdae.thanks for de milk chocolate.i love you!

to daughter:i love you alot!

to milker:thanks for cheerin mi up indirectly.hahas.and i was not angri wid u
at de food republic yesterdae.

to toy:i was not angri wid u at de food republic yesterdae.lols.

to everyone listed here and owner.shoe freak.bullshit.dumb.wife.:dun ask mi to go
eat mac until
de twelvth of
sep cos i promise
not to eat mac for
one month frm now.

Labels: yEstERdAE ANd todAE RockEd.

Thursday, August 9, 2007,
11:02 PM

woke up quite late dis mornin.hahas.rushed to meet liyana.jian bao.wendy.hoa.hongni.at tiong.i juz realised dat it takes mi almost one hour to reach tiong frm my hse if i take 195.hahas.ate burger king.studied abit.den went plaza singapura wid wendy n hongni to meet JASMINE!!!she rocks!rocks!rocks!lols.i love her alot!we talked alot of crap.mostly we talked bout courses in poly n blah.blah.blah.as usual.she made fun of mi bein a teacher in de future.she oso made fun of my daughter if she becomes a chemist.lols.slack till six plus wid her.den she had to leave cos she goin to watch fireworks wid her boyfriend.hahas.mi.wendy.hongni.went back tiong cos we didn't wan to go home so early.i suggested goin back to burger king to see whether hoa n liyana still dere anot.lols.obviously we thought dey go off liao.but SHOCKINGLY.dey were still dere STUDYIN!lols.we were damn shocked lahz.den we went popular together.slack dere for some time.den went home lorz.watched de last part of ndp on tv.could see de fireworks frm my hse.quite nice lahz.den watched"live de dream".i dun lik de show lahz.not nice de.yucks!den playin comp until now.oh my gosh!my mum's watchin a ghost movie right now!and its lik so scary lahz.CREEPY!hahas.

to jasmine:im so happi dat i could meet u todae.hahas.i miss u alot!u rock!and im FIERCE lorz.lols.hope to see u again soon.i will msg u after gettin my prelim results.oh.and i will visit u some time at de pub dat u work at.

to daughter:dun b a chemist hu creates unnecessary explosions in de future horz.lols.

to x? mummy:i love u.hahas.

to owner:i love u too.lols.

to jian bao(shoe freak):study is study lah.but rmb.u hab to rest well too.

to toy:all de best for ur english 'o'level oral.dun worry too much lahz.u will do veri well de.hahas.

to milker:u muz always trust mi.hahas.

Labels: todAE RockEd.jAsmiNE Rocks.

Wednesday, August 8, 2007,
11:16 PM

to bullshit:i noe u said its ok.but i still feel bad so i shall apologise another time.SORRI.i owe u a nite outin ok?hahas.

to x? mummy:i owe u a lantern playin nite outin n another normal nite outin ok?hahas.

to daughter:glad dat u noe dat darren chong rocks!

to milker:STUPID!

to dumbbell:DUMB!

to singapore:HAPPI BIRTHDAE!

to mummy:SORRI!you shld noe y.

10:41 PM

milker wore red tee.laughed wen he alighted frm de bus.hahas.he hit my head n was lik "u laugh wat laugh?"lols.met wendy n pui hoon at de sch bustop.den went up to de hall.wendy was sittin on de left side of mi.ryan was sittin on de right side of mi.lols.den went to de field to do some stretchin.after dat.took photos wid aishah.liyana.nora n winnie.hahas.we rock.den started to walk.wendy.hongni n jesline walked at a pace which was so SLOW dat we caught up wid dem.lols.de walk was quite ok.laughed n joked all de way!hahas.den went back to de hall for concert.firstly.de recollection team did their recollection thingy.lols.my cousin was involved in it.wendy said"wah.he dress until quite stylo horz?"lols.quite true.den mrs yeo was to supposed to read de national dae msg.but in de end.she made students do it.(liyana.nora.jing cheng.andy.rafi.stephanie.still gort other ppl involved in it.)den de dance put up two items for us.de first one was quite nice.but de second was ok ok onli lahz.den was de band.their performance was ok.den alan cheng had dis quiz thingy for us.de slide was lik showin all de pictures of de students.lols.den was de choir.their first performance was a solo by a girl frm de choir.it was great!but wen de choir came together.hais.(dey realli hab to work hard!)den it was announced dat ms sham wud b furtherin her studies in germany.den all de teachers sang some songs.lols.my twelve(agnes) gort sing oso!she ROCKS!dat marked de end of de concert.4e4 took pictures wid ms law n mr darren chong!yay!we ROCK!den seetoh came too.we took pictures wid her outside de pe department.den went tiong wid pui hoon.hoa.wendy.hongni.jesline.pui hua.we were damn hungry.n all de food places were packed wid ppl.we were lik"wat de...wat de..."lols.finally.we went MAC!FOOD AT LAST!hahas.den went bm library wid pui hoon.hoa n jesline.slack dere until four plus.den went home.ryan said he wanted to go countdown.but.hais.some stuff happened lahz.so.none of us went.(hungri...arrggh...too angri to eat wat she cooked!)bleah.feel damn guilty.hais.nvm.over is over.hahas.dere's always a next time.hahas.was damn frustrated juz now dat i did my bio stuff.lols.den play comp until now.talkin wid bullshit n daughter.lols.happi 42nd birthdae,singapore.

Tuesday, August 7, 2007,
10:45 PM

arrggh.wen i reached henderson dere.saw a guy dat i dun quite like.den wen mi n joshua reached de school gate.de DUMB prefects dun let us enter de sch.dere was dis prefect hu is a gerl.she was lik "oh!u all r de first bell latecomers!"fcuk u lahz.lamer!den gort two girls frm 4NT.dey juz pushed open de gate n walked in.lols.den everybody followed.all de prefects were lik "HUH?"hahas.their faces looked so DUMB!lousy prefects!had surprise test durin mother tongue.mr tan soon yong SUCKS!de paper was lik so difficult n he told us dat it would b veri easy.easy my foot lahz.crapper.den durin bio.mi n wendy kana kicked out of de lab cos we didn't do de homework.den durin maths.mrs ng nagged alot(it makes sense.so i dun realli mind.)den she returned us our test paper.arrggh.i failed by 4.5 marks lehz.shit lahz.den after sch.had maths n physics test as usual.both confirm fail de.hais.den gort back poa test results.i failed by two marks!todae suck!suck!suck!but den after isp n all dat rubbish.went tiong wid joshua.arion.hongni.pui hoon.wendy.we bought bubble tea.den mi.joshua.arion.hongni.went kopitiam to eat!(onli joshua n arion ate).den went home lorz.realised my mum didn't bring over my last yr class tee to our own hse.after realising dat.i dun noe y but i started cryin.(shld b because of everythin bad dat happened todae).lols.

to tan soon yong:you suck!

to mrs ng:thanks for ur lecture which made alot of sense.

to darren chong:sorri.but i wouldnt b wearin last yr's class tee tml.

to wendy:thanks for de milk chocolate.

to hongni:i love u.

to selvam:dun lie to mi lahz.

to arion:im guai!

to pui hoon:dun watch dat stupid seven 'o' clock show animore lahz.

to dat particular girl prefect:dun act so much lahz.you suck!

DARREN CHONG ROCKS!TAN SOON YONG SUCKS!MILK CHOCOLATES ROCK!DARK CHOCOLATES SUCK!

Monday, August 6, 2007,
9:22 PM

first two periods were maths.did transformation.it kinda sucks!lols.den came english.oh my goodness.i dun noe why but it was damn damn damn boring todae lorz.hahas.was so happi wen it was over.wat de hell lahz.i failed my common test by one mark.arrggh.wats de big difference between "pity" n "pitiness"?arrggh.aiya.over is over lorz.den came mother tongue.i spent both periods writin letter to wendy(i noe i wasted precious time).den was recess.i ate kaya butter cheese toast n drank milo.hoa ate egg sandwich n drank grass jelly.after recess was poa which was quite ok lahz.lols.after dat i ate mash potato.liyana ate de fried noodles.den went for maths.continued to do transformation.lols.den went for poa.first hour theory lesson.den test for half n hour.confirm fail de lahz.hais.den went canteen wid liyana,joshua n jesline to find hoa.pui hoon.aishah n doris.den wendy came.oh ya.my twelves(agnes n wen xin) came too.den we slack.slack.until six lik dat.lols.den mi.hoa.joshua.pui hoon.went tiong kfc to eat.den went home lorz.den did homework.den play comp until now.

tml gort mensuration n optics test(haben study).

haben do my testimonial.

to jesline:get well soon.u looked realli sick juz now.

to wendy n joshua:milk chocolates rock!
dark chocolates suck!

to joshua:darren chong rocks!

to ryan:bullshit.dun act cool lahz!

Sunday, August 5, 2007,
9:36 PM

woke up around ten plus.watched tv.left hse at twelve to meet karthik at bukit merah mac to study.he came a few minutes late.lols.i did poa n he did english.we studied until six.den went ntuc to buy some stuff.den took one four five home.oh ya.he had alot of stories as usual.lols.reached home.ate dinner.play comp until now.lols.todae nothin much to blog bout.

i dun noe y.but i get dis feelin dat ur thinkin bout de past too.

tired.

tml gort poa test.tink i will fail.hais.

MILKER!i bought for u ur chocolate liao.hahas.

tml hab lessons till five.sian.

Saturday, August 4, 2007,
10:42 PM

mornin went for physics lesson.met wendy.pui hoon n hongni at de sch bustop.hahas.lesson was held in de avt.hmmm.lesson was nt bad actualli.oh ya...sat wid nora n liyana n of course wid de ppl mentioned above.lols.suddenly HE came in.oh my goodness!i was totally shocked.i didnt expect him to come.hahas.in de middle of de lesson.mi n my daughter attempted to write usin our left hands.lols.it was quite a good attempt.wendy n pui hoon tried it too.hahas.we were freezin inside de avt.we were so happi wen de lesson ended.i was quite happi cos i learnt quite alot frm de lesson.thanks MR CHUA for teachin so well.den mi.liyana.pui hoon.wendy.hongni.went tiong de long john to eat.den we went popular.den liyana had to leave cos she had to go n celebrate her father's bdae.HAPPI BIRTHDAE,LIYANA'S DAD!hahas.den mi.pui hoon.hongni.went burger king to study.a guy was sittin beside us.i dun noe why but he reminded mi of joshua(de way dey write n de guy's shoes were frm adidas).lols.den we went ntuc cos i had to buy some stuff.de stuff were:carrots.baygon.fab.nuggets.sardine.sugar.coconut milk.sweets.hahas.den went home.played comp.den did transformation(it sucks!).den play comp until now.hahas.HE asked mi bout my nick which is"waitin for u".he thought i was waitin for him(which is ....).but i ...... it.hais.so sad.tml goin out wid bro(karthik)to study.ok.i dun hab de mood to blog some more.hais.

WAIT FOR YOU:

[Verse 1]

I never felt nothing in the world like this before.
Now I'm missing u
& I'm wishin that u would come back through my door.
Y did u have to go? u could have let mi noe.
So now I'm all alone.
Girl u could have stayed
but u wouldn't give mi a chance.
With u not around it's a little bit more then i can stand.
And all my tears they keep running down my face.
Y did u turn away?

[Bridge]

So why does ur pride make u run and hide?
Are u that afraid of mi?
But I noe it's a lot what u keep inside.
this is not how u wanted to be.

[Chorus]

So baby I will wait for u.
Cause I dun noe wat else i can do.
Dun tell me I ran out of time.
If it takes the rest of my life.

Baby I will wait for u.
If u think I'm fine it just ain't true.
I really need u in my life.
No matter wat i have to do I'll wait for u.

[Verse 2]

It's been a long time since u called mi.
(How could u forget about mi)
U got to be feelin crazy (crazy)
How can u walk away?
Everything stays the same.
I just can't do it baby.
Wat will it take to make u come back?
Girl I told u wat it is & it just ain't like that.
Why can't u look at mi?your still in love wid mi.
Dun leave mi cryin.

[Bridge]

Baby y can't we just start over again?
Get it back to de way it was.
If u giv mi a chance I can love u right.
But your telling mi it wont be enough.

[Chorus]

So baby I will wait for u.
Cause I dun noe wat else i can do.
Dun tell mi I ran out of time.
If it takes the rest of my life.

Baby I will wait for u.
If u think I'm fine it just ain't true.
I really need u in my life.
No matter wat i have to do I'll wait for u.

[Bridge]

So y does your pride make u run & hide?
Are u that afraid of mi?
But I noe it's a lot what your keeping inside.
Dats not how u wanted to be.

Baby I will wait for u.
Baby I will wait for u.
If it's the last thing i do.

[Chorus]

Baby I will wait for u.
Cause I dun noe wat else i can do.
Dun tell mi I ran out of time.
If it takes the rest of my life.

Baby I will wait for u.
If u think I'm fine it just ain't true.
I really need u in my life.
No matter wat i have to do I'll wait for u.

I'll Be Waitin.

Friday, August 3, 2007,
9:28 PM

hahas.mornin was quite fun.cos of photo-takin.dey separated us into our cca groups n we cud do our own stuff.lols.de girls' brigade were sent to de humanities room.hahas.my toy(hoa)sat beside mi.hahas.so happi.beside her was pui hoon n jesline.den at nine.we went for recess.mi n hoa bought nasi lemak frm de malay stall.hahas.den we went to de hall for cca photo takin.lols.i stood beside pui hoon.hahas.so happi.hoa was near us too.lols.after photo takin.we went back to de humanities room.den at eleven.went for history lesson.had test.confirm fail de lahz.hahas.after school.wen de rest went for their tutorin sessions.i went back home play comp.den i went back to sch to find hoa n accompany her go see doctor.hahas.wen i reached henderson.most of our group ppl were dere too.lols.den i oso saw jian bao.aishah n doris.i saw wendy too!lols.den went tiong wid pui hoon.hoa.n may.hoa went to see doctor.mi.pui hoon.n may walked around tiong.smart asshole was dere too.lols.den we slack.slack.slack.den went home lorz.de one nine five damn slow lahz.lols.i love all de names mentioned in dis post.hahas.

Thursday, August 2, 2007,
10:21 PM

hahas.dis mornin.purposely went to de bustop lata den usual.guess wat?joshua came even lata.den we met Aishah on de bus.and as usual.dey started quarelling.joshua is STUPID!aishah is DUMB!and i m LAME!lols.durin mornin assembly.Mrs Yeo talk n talk all sorts of rubbish sia.i failed my poa test.18r1r2 over 39.i feel so sad.nvm.i shall do betta for de next test.lols.was damn angri wid milker cos of some stuff.but now ok liao lahz.oh ya.mi.hoa.hongni.jesline.studied at de pigeon hole area.hahas.im so proud of myself.i did poa n bio.lols.after dat.went canteen wid aishah.wendy.jian bao.oh.xue li oso.den we slack slack.i reached home around seven fifty.den did de history hw.den play comp(argue wid selvam bout lots of lame stuff).hahas.fun!tml hab to wake up early n study for history test.oh.tml gort cca photo-takin.yay!dun hab to wear full-u.hahas.alright.i wan to go sleep liao.i rock much more den selvam.hahas.

Wednesday, August 1, 2007,
10:25 PM

met joshua in de mornin as usual.aishah missed de bus cos she couldnt find her mathematical set.lols.yay!i passed my trigo test.13 over 20.lols.english was borin as usual.lols.recess drank milo n ate some cheese crackers.lols.bio was slackin lesson as usual.hahas.den ate mash potato for lunch.den went for maths.transformation sucks lahz.arrggh.i kept on fallin asleep.but neva kana caught lahz.den for pe.played badminton wid wendy.liyana n doris.fun!den played "pick de pens" wid wendy n jesline.fun!den went tiong wid wendy.joshua.hoa.pui hoon n hongni.went to eat kfc.talked alot of crap.reached home around eight plus.HE asked mi wat i meant by my nick.i told him.wow.he actually cared!hahas.i asked how his life was.at first he said ok.den he said actualli not ok.i asked him why.he said wait until "o"levels over.den he will tell.(i tink i noe y liao)lols.hahas.ok.i shall end my post here.tml learnin poa frm Joshua.hahas.